Friday 22 March 2013

comets come and beggars die

2013  the year of the comet "so comets come and beggars  die"  bright comets in march and december -will be out looking
finding ipad sky map app useful but would really like to know if there is software that shows the night sky constellations 250 million years ago  ie even before red sirius  and our more recent  pleiades  believe the  jurassic constellations would be more open  and the constellation patterns more  jackson pollock  some bright stars  ie where crater is now  and a larger milky way spanning  constellation  head of the dragon  tail of the dragon or should it be called ptero magna  

   having been out   of teaching for  only six months after notice  redundancy feel even  more out of it for ever !! jobless  and friendless

  supposed to be back in adult education by 2014
difficult to see this as  most adult education trainer/teacher essential car user  so rarely get to interview lot of employability trainers  jobs - well I did teach the subject  for  five years however  feeling overcome with self doubt which is new to me as yet again finding no opportunities even as a volunteer

paid work how I miss you! for many  paid   notice  and redundant weeks I   got up to get to work for 815am but now  find myself reluctant to get out of bed  until 9am  lie there thinking "I am dead bury me" 
poetry   still editing and selecting  content ebook of the  second poetry collection the ragletters mainly last years   such as time slip, the sleeping engine, moods of wookey hole  legends, zennor morning  and others i made videos of on youtube rather  lot of  mytho  stuff  written in new insight find edgar rice burroughs more of an inspiration than  william burroughs
i am concentrasting on story poem  one of th first being about egyptian mummy coming to life and wrecking havoc in victorian london  written in my usual miminalist  and ironic style  this most popular with readers   and will add to  poemhunter  some reader comments I leave the  mummy horror story in the air  
 it ends like this 
"a muffled princess  shipped with bier
he smells her sept 
lust for scarab   and scabie
 goes out the door   to London flesh
penny paper fog and  gas lamp sothis
ladies  of vampire ice  feeding on nurse maids 
Ripper Jack  cuts to  dusk"

lot of unfinished in progress   such as  zennor wedding   and  one about columbus and all three ships lost on his voyage home
 find I have now moved away from the symbolic high declaim to the folk story poem  retelling arthurian and classical myths in  ironic and irrelerant style  ie king uther turned into  the lady  he sought to seduce,north berwick witches and loads of mermaid and sea  lore poems

find myself same interests astronomy with naked eye and  tools of medieval science    reading from the library a visit to which is the highlight of my week  and reviewing books, writing poetry the same things i do  unemployed   as I was in work but unemployed makes me feel empty what is use of being an award winning  professional if out of work  for the only reason of redundancy and funding cut
admit it  I am missing the salary not my workplace